i'm graduating officially tmr. i'm excited. (:

This is actually a public continuation of my previous post which I made viewable only to my girlfriend. There are some things that my boss and me discuss all the time which I should keep it to myself and maybe share a lil bit with my girlfriend. To be honest, I feel like I'm working as a conspiracy theorist because I really know a lot of things regarding other people but I just keep my pie holes closed regarding most matters, even to my girlfriend.

So in this post, I'll be summarising what we had talk about earlier in the afternoon. Its more like what a guy expects a wife to do after marriage. not before, but after. And its more of like the finer details of expectations. Not like some of Tumblr posts of girls wanting their guys to have some characteristics. (And they ended up forever alone because they just couldn't find these dream guys)

The first thing is about the spending intelligence of the female species. We both agree that girls who keep their receipts so that they can monitor their spendings and actually do real financial planning is a plus point. It would definitely help in a marriage because financial planning in a marriage is very important. I think there's a general stereotype that girls spend too much. I can't be sure though. Because I have a girlfriend who doesn't spend. She will want something but she will say "Next month I buy." And it will just drag till she forgets about the item. And I'm proud of the fact that Badriyah always monitors her spendings. And her wallet is filled with receipts instead of money. There was this point of time I had to actually persuade her to buy something. 

And the second is about cleanliness. I think it is really important for a girl to be organised. I don't need tidy freaks. I just want to be able to get stuffs when I need them without the need to walk through rubbles of rubbish stuffs. I am personally not that messy myself. (Yeah that episode at my aunt's house still playing in my mind when my dad said my brother is cleaner than me. I was so pissed off I threw all my food away) I have my times actually. Sometimes I felt like making a mess so there I go making a mess. And of course, being someone who's obsessed with robotics, my mess are usually wires and components lying around. (I really wish my sister can just get out of my room as soon as possible so that I have more space to do my stuffs. And another thing my dad pissed me off about is that he removed my study table in my room. Piece of shit!) Ok back to the point, so we both agreed that an organised wife is vital too. 

We also talked about girls who are dominant in relationships. And we both again agreed that its hard when women start to get dominant in marriages. Some people will think that I'm a sexist for saying that. But the fact that even my girlfriend agrees strengthens my point. The thing about my girlfriend is that she experiences things I never had experienced. And these experiences she had helped us in our relationship a lot. A LOT. She had a first hand experience with dominant woman in marriages. And like we three would agree, again its gonna sound sexist, but females tend to make decisions using emotions. And its really not a good thing. And to be frank, there are some relationships around me, that I think wouldn't last or wouldn't be so healthy. I am not saying that I'm good in relationships. I made a lot of bad decisions and the only way to get better is to learn from it. But I am also not naive that I can't notice people around me. There are girls I really despise for treating their boyfriends badly. 

Ok I think I shall end here. Its getting monotonous. There's also actually another topic we talked about. Regarding sex life. But I think its not necessary to be discussed here. So here I stop.

To be honest, I saw it coming. Like dry ice sublimating into thin air. But I just kept quiet. Then you decided that its time to provoke me. You removed me from being able to read your blog. I don't really care because I don't always read it anyways. But from there, I knew that everything is over. But its alright. I'm used to this. I knew I had done my part in apologising. Whether you accept or not, its up to you. I am not bothered by this because I don't feel guilty of being the party that starts the provocation. 

I don't lose nor win in this. But I can say that you are the one losing. That's why your friends just forget about you. You should also stop trying to be "unique" or "weird" whatever you call it. I think you're just trying too hard so as to be accepted by people. I honestly think that your random outbreak of words are irritating. I think you whine too much. But I was alright with it. Then you started pressuring me asking if you are being very irritating. I said "No" but you think I'm lying when I'm honestly alright with it. You are confusing. I really was alright with anything you talk about but since you wanted it to be like this, so I'll just say out loud that yeah you are really irritating.

I think you are really unappreciative of people. I stuck with you and tried to help through your episodes of your so called "depression". With a sincere heart of a friend. You have no idea what depression is until you went through what my girlfriend went through. 

But nevertheless, I still would like to thank you for the chance of being friends with you. It was a pretty epic friendship. Beginning from what may be referred to as enemies to good friends. But sadly it had to end like this.

And in case you are wondering, I'm referring to you, the person who doesn't believe in best friends anymore. Outrageous.

today was a really interesting day for me. earlier in the morning, i was activated because there was a burglary in this place which i can't name actually. so off i went with my boss to the venue and we extracted the surveillance camera footage. So I spent about 10 minutes watching the burglar in action. what's interesting is how some people can think and some just couldn't. Or maybe they just wouldn't.

i don't really want to list out everything that he had done but seriously, wouldn't it be a human instinct to find out if there's any surveillance equipments around you before performing a burglary. i just don't understand him. and the funniest part was when he panicked because he seems to be unable to find a way out. wah serious. learn your stuffs before stealing la sia. hahaha

Nowadays its always about the upcoming Singapore General Elections. Parties are having debates on whoever is the better party and such. They always talk about the same things like better living standards etc etc. Its great that they do think about Singapore citizens.

But what I wish they could also focus on is innovation. I think Singapore really lacks this. Singaporeans are brought up to living in a shell. Let's take Japan as an example. Why are they the third best economy? Because their people are allowed to always ask why. They always strive to not take things for granted. They always ask why, and from there learn. That's how they are able to invent things that are really beneficial for us.
This is the mindset I wish Singaporeans have and more importantly, allowed to have. People tend to learn more when they are thrown in the deep side of the pool.

I hate school because its always about reading. I'm sick of it. I think the only module that benefits me in polytechnic is the final year project. That is the only module that allowed me to think out of the box and put it to good use.

That's the reason I'm building another robot entirely on my own, well maybe with the help of one of my designer friends. I want to implement everything that I learnt in school. And I really find it better learning on my own than getting spoonfed. I've learnt SolidWorks on my own. I've learnt Python and Arduino Programming on my own. I'm tired of always been given answers to questions. To be frank, I skipped a lot of lectures in polytechnic because I'm sick of them. I attended just enough lectures to prevent myself from getting the absence warning letters. But hey, I graduated with a GPA of 3.825. Its not good when compared to some of my other mates, but I'm just trying to prove a point that teens can learn on their own when they are given the chance to. Again, I wish the Singapore government change their education system and make it a system that promotes innovation amongst students


And what I always hated in Singapore, is the stereotype against the minorities. I know of the fact that generally Malays are lazier. But what about the handful of people who had put in a lot of effort but in the end got shyed away because of this stereotype? I wish the government is more fair towards the minorities. I'm still angry over the fact that Singapore Air Force rejected me because apparently my GPA "is a bit too high". What fucking crap is that? 

Well, who never knew that LKY allowed Malay ministers to be in the Cabinet because he had no choice? If Allah allows, I think it will be of a great benefit that I migrate out of Singapore and never look back. It sucks to be living here. You have no idea how hard it is for me to build this robot because Singapore is the worst place ever to look for construction materials. You can't even buy a wireless camera that can go above 100m because its illegal. What crap.

big fucking...
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 i love this place. its unlike any other resorts I've been to. totally unique with the log cabins and the woods theme. really nice and peaceful place. the only thing that could be better is the location of our villas. but it's alright, because we have "chauffeurs" driving us around the place with buggies.

anyways to round off the first day, i had this super nice snow ice from perhentian Pagoh. Freaking nice la omg I want it again!

and then checked in the hotel and rested there for a few hours. i wasn't in the mood to take pictures so the first day wasn't much of a photography day. and i was dead tired la. i kept dozing off during our travels but always get interrupted from sleep when we reach the destination or what.

oh something bad though minor happened today. day forgot to switch off the headlights so the battery just drained off. and we can't start the car when it was time to visit my relative at the hospital. dad called his cousin i think which in turn called his mechanic. so phew, it was alright after that.

oh ya about the hospital part, went to visit my grandma's sibling's wife. it was damn scary to see her condition la with the tubes protruding out of her throat. haiz. scaryyy.

 You can consider me as a busy bee nowadays. I was recruited by this guy to assist him in his work. I don't know if its a business strategy kinda thing but he's damn nice to me. But he seems sincere about it. Sometimes I even wish he can really treat me like his worker. But no, he's always nice to me. Might have something to do with his name I guess, HAHA my girlfriend and I made a little joke about the way he treats me and his name (which I rather not reveal). And he's one of they people who we don't make bad jokes about. He's really nice I guess.

So basically the nature of my job is really to take over (or more like assist for now) his work. After 22nd, I will be bringing his Indian workers around to do installations, take care of grumpy customers etc etc. On my own. Yeah. So this is REALLY something new for me. I was quite thankful that he changed his mind about making me his Sales Executive and assigned me as his assistant as I really am afraid that I might screw up his sales. 

The first day of work, which was on Monday was pretty much running around troubleshooting faulty cameras. But the thing is, its really not the camera's fault. I really hope he changes the customer's routers soon if not they will keep bugging me and my boss about the cameras. It's really frustrating. Oh oh and for the first day, we went to this condominium (I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO EVEN SPELL THE NAME) which costs around 2.2million per unit, a second condo which is uh 4 storeys high(?) but still damn expensive. But really these two condos, it makes you feel like you're on a holiday EVERYDAY. It's damn beautiful. And our last stop was the Marina Bay Sands. Definitely a nice place!

And uh today, I kinda started going outfield on my own. Early morning was the trip to Tanglin road to meet a customer regarding her non working cameras and also more installations. Oh man, dealing with a pregnant woman is such a headache. lol. And after that stop, met up with my boss to service cameras at this company at Genting Lane. The company is damn cool with their 63 inch TVs. I'm like woah. Didn't know TVs can get that big! It's actually a company that provides advertising companies with advertising equipment. I really learnt a lot from the troubleshooting which I have to implement when I bring the Indian workers around.

I never felt this tired my whole life man. I just went home and plopped on my bed and instantly just doze off. lol. 

I'm nervous for the 22nd. And on the bright side, I get ANOTHER Blackberry and a netbook. hahahaa

Ok I guess I'll end my post here. Finally a proper post right!

looks like livejournal interface didn't change a bit while I was gone for a LONG time. so basically, I'm a free man. I'm free as an airplane. I can now do anything I want without the guilt of not studying hard enough. I can't wait to graduate. I hope I will graduate. I'm excited about NS too. Meanwhile, while waiting for enlistment, I'm building an unmanned ground vehicle. (: I wouldn't want to waste the free time I will be having. Oh yeah I forgot that I'm starting work next week.

Dad and me had been talking about what I should do in the future. He encourages me to continue my studies in NTU/NUS but knowing me, the person who had already decided what he wants from day 1 he joined this course, had always wanted to directly take up the on the job training for Licensed Aircraft Engineer. 

And finally, dad came up with an idea. I'm going to try applying for NTU/NUS and also LAE. So if I were to get into LAE, I will drop out of NTU. lol. I think it's a good idea. Else, I will continue my studies in NTU or NUS. haha. But the thought of being labelled as school drop out is kind of embarrassing.